Recapping articles are some of the most troublesome articles I had to write so far, mostly because my memory does not allow me to recap. However, I was inspired when I saw all my local friends compiling all their goals for 2023, so I might be late with the recap but here we are.

There is not a lot to say about 2022 regarding my content and I do not want to focus on all the negative stuff every time I look back at the past year, but a recap is needed as it is somehow my promise to myself for 2023.

I personally think the past year was a very big letdown for me as a content creator, if I am honestly speaking. I have not been pushing as much content as I was planning to do in 2022, especially for my blog.

In the past year, I really focused on my streaming a lot more and for a while, it went well. We created a lot of amazing memories with the community, I learned a few things about content creation and most importantly, I got to learn a lot about myself as a streamer.
It may sound silly but streaming has taught me a few things about myself as a person especially because my community allowed me to be the person I wanted to be.

As some of you may or may not know, I got doxed sometime in July, and I had to decide if I wanted to keep pushing myself as a streamer or stop streaming. I was already feeling very down, drained, and a bit depressed during that time, especially with the amount/kind of content I was pushing out.
To the point where I was feeling very lonely at times and found it hard to express myself and I started questioning whether or not I wanted to continue steaming and Vtubing.

When the doxing took place I had to really sit back and think about what I wanted and how I was going to do it.
A few people tried to convince me to stay as Azzy the Vtuber and that I had to keep fighting instead of giving up and restarting with my model that was in the works. The new model was not meant to be a restart but rather a look rebrand only.
So I was thankful I did not share any information apart from her eyes and her occupation.

On the sadder side of things, this meant that I had to give up the community we have all built so far, which was not an easy call I had to make. There was a lot of back and forth on who I can tell, who I should tell, and fearing that nobody would find me.
Looking back on my decision I do see how it might have been a bit selfish for some, who really enjoyed my comfy streams and I still recall the tears we shared together on my final stream. However, I really wanted to continue streaming, mostly because I kept being told that I am at my happiest when I stream… and I was.
Streaming has challenged me to exit my shell of awkward shyness and allowed me to laugh out loud, chat more regularly about my video games, and spam friends to play games. I somehow became more outgoing and open with everyone because of streaming.

Looking back at all the things I did not know about vtubing, I am somewhat more hopeful that this time around I will be able to do better and create better content for others to watch.
And while I am hiding my new identity from everyone, I am hopeful that I will be able to make even more friends. I have also decided that I will be keeping to a very small group of friends after the doxing because I need to be able to protect my friends, viewers, and myself.

But enough of all the past dwelling, 2023 is here and there are a few things I do want to do better at. 
As I mentioned before I do want to focus on my blog a lot more in 2023 and write more articles everyone can enjoy. Blogging is what put me onto the path of content creation and I am so grateful people take the time to read my blog… Ssooo if you are still reading, comment cookie below, so I know :)

Streaming might be slow for the first few months as I need to find my footing and build around that. I somehow also need to find my motivation to do so and come over my fear of disappointing myself when I go live for the “First time” again. Especially with my community not being there watching like always.

Looking at the blog and some of the articles I have lined up, I am somewhat worried about how others will view the articles. 
For example, we have a few events upcoming in 2023, and after taking part in these events last year, I have a lot of ideas and honest feedback to give, which might not be welcomed all the time.
There are a lot of things I would like to accomplish this year and I am sure I can achieve them through hard work, and keeping my focus.

That is all I can say about 2022, 2023 has a brighter horizon and a lot of opportunities waiting for us all. I personally think it’s about setting up the right mindset and then we can do anything.

Best of luck to everyone in 2023. May the year be bright, colorful, and full of new beginnings.

Lots of love